Farewell, 2010, farewell, failure
Firstly…English is not my first language. Please excuse my poor writing. I intend to improve it by keep writing this blog.
Little bit about myself. I am in my early thirties, single, living in the tiniest studio in London by myself(obviously). I’ve been living in London for 5years. Originally from a small country in Asia. Working as an admin, I can say my role is the least important role but I’m happy with my job.
This year, my life was in a mess.
1. Separated from my partner because I fell in love with someone else
2. Broke up with “someone” because of stress, but still loved him
3. On Valentine’s Day, “someone” promised me to see me, on the day, his mobile was off, truly believed our undying love, I went to his house only to catch him naked on sofa with his “ex-”girlfriend
4. Still had to face him everyday(never, ever flirt with your colleague, especially when his desk is right opposite to yours)
5. Developed eczema on both of my cheeks and elbows
6. Lost my job
7. Unemployed for 2months, unsurprisingly, I’m in debt, massive debt!
8. While unemployed, got back with “someone” only to be dumped on the day I finally got a job
So now, here I am, single, more than £1,000 in debt.
I know I can only blame myself. I fell in love with “someone” who’d hurt me over and over, and I hurt my partner that will haunt me until I die, I lost my job because I didn’t get on with my boss and was busy being “friendly” with my co-worker(“someone”).
Still, I think I coped well.
And I really want to be happy. And I think I deserve a better, or even, great new year.
But I can’t just pray and hope good things to come to me.
So what am I going to do now? I heard there were some secrets to be happy.
And it’s written in loads of books.
Now I picked up one book. According to the author, I can’t be happy by just reading it. I have to practice everything that is written in the book.
I am desperate. I have nothing to lose.
And now is the perfect time to start something.
So let’s see how my life will change by this experiment.
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